极度妄想

我叫李应杰，一个一无所有的失败者，就是那种既没有特别优秀的父母，小时候不认真听课，长大了什么都不会，连女朋友都没有的超级穷屌丝。

My name is Li Yingjie, a loser who has nothing, is the kind of parents who are not particularly excellent. They did not listen seriously when they were young.

毫无疑问，我这样的人，几乎谁都瞧不起，甚至连我自己，都看不起我自己。我最大的梦想，就是不必为过日子而担忧，找到一份好工作，能有一个像样的家和妻子，过着幸福美满的生活，但这对于我来说，无异于痴心妄想。

There is no doubt that almost everyone like me looks down on, and even myself, I look down on myself.My biggest dream is that you don't have to worry about living. Find a good job. You can have a decent home and wife to live a happy and happy life, but this is tantamount to me.

想想也是好的，我总是幻想着自己很有钱，住着一辆大房子，有着一个大车库，里面停着一辆兰博基尼，我还有一个非常温柔的妻子叫张慧霞。在幻想中，我还是个非常有才的人，从小就成绩优秀，长大后更是才华横溢，凭借我的才华，我更是当上了一名作家，过着无比幸福的生活。

It is also good to think about it. I always imagine that I am very rich. I live in a large house with a large garage with a Lamborghini. I also have a very gentle wife named Zhang Huixia.In the fantasy, I am a very talented person. I have achieved excellent results since I was a child. When I grow up, I am even more talented. With my talent, I have become a writer and live a very happy life.

我不喜欢白天，喜欢黑夜。在白天里，我是一个懦夫，彻底的失败者，整天为了生活而奔波，我讨厌这种生活。但到了晚上，在睡梦中，我变成了那个多才多艺的人，拥有自己的生活，在幻想中，我感到心满意足。

I don't like daytime, I like black night.During the day, I am a coward, a thorough loser, and running for life all day. I hate this life.But at night, in my sleep, I became a versatile person, with my own life, and in the fantasy, I felt satisfied.

不过，最近我遇到了一个问题，不知从什么时候开始，我总觉得自己不是那个失败者，而是那位成功者，我的成就不是幻想出来的，相反，那个一无所有的人，才是我想象出来的人。我究竟是谁？我感到很疑惑。

However, I have encountered a problem recently. I do n’t know when I started, I always feel that I am not the loser, but that successful person. My achievement is not fantasized. On the contraryPeople who come out.Who am I?I feel very puzzled.

不说了，慧霞刚刚喊我出去一下，就先说到这里吧。

Not to mention, Huixia just called me out, so let's talk about it first.

等等，我不是没有妻子吗？那刚才是谁喊得我？还有，我不是应该在找工作吗？现在我在干什么？

Wait, isn't I without a wife?Who shouted me just now?Also, shouldn't I find a job?What am I doing now?

那个失败的我真的是幻想出来的吗？可为什么我就像那个人一样，穿着穿了一年的破衣裳，还满脸胡渣？而且我还感觉我像是三天没吃饭一样饿了？我不是个有钱人吗？我不是该住在一个大豪宅里吗？可为什么屋里的灯光，就像那个失败者的房子里的一样昏暗？

Did I really like that failed?But why is it like that person, wearing a broken clothes for a year, and his face is full of scum?And I still feel that I am hungry as if I haven't eaten for three days?Am I not a rich man?Should I live in a big mansion?But why is the light in the house as dim as the loser's house?

我到底是谁？哪个是我幻想出来的，哪个又是真正的我？

Who are I?Which of me is fantasizing and which one is the real me?

还是说，我根本就是幻想出来的，我根本就不存在？

Or, I just imagined it at all, I didn't exist at all?

我真的很疑惑，你能为我解答吗？

I am really puzzled, can you answer me?